Who I am is not my position, my title, my career, or what others perceive me to be. Who I am is an individual expression of light. Anything else is an illusion. –spoken to me on December 20th, 2013.
This affirmation came to me this morning as a result of many weeks of struggling with the idea of letting go of work as a Spiritual Healer. See, I received the message several months ago that it was time to let it go, to explore a larger version of myself. As you can probably imagine, letting go of the thing you perceive to be your sustenance, survival, and identity can be quite a task. Without the thing that feeds me, how will I get by? How will I survive without income? What will my clients think? What will they do without this service? Who am I without my career?
I couldn’t answer these questions. I couldn’t reconcile this message of letting go and I was hoping that I would have the next “thing” lined up before releasing this aspect of myself, or at least before I let the public know.
But I don’t.
I have an idea of what’s coming but the future technically doesn’t exist. The concept of a future is just an illusion, just as my career is an illusion of who I think I am. But who I am is greater and larger than my title as a healer. It is greater than the safe box I’ve put myself in. I created a false belief that this “healer” was entirely me and therefore, to detach from it meant I would lose my sense of self.
But my beliefs are not real. In fact, I dare say I have been lying to myself. Ultimately, I am, we all are, pure light energy and an expression of Spirit. And I know that I am being guided to explore a larger expression of this light.
If you have been wondering why I stopped writing, and why I decided to take two months off from work, it’s because of all this. I was extremely resistant to what I know to be true and right for me. I needed some time to reconcile and accept my greatness by letting go of the beliefs and attachments that were weighing me down, even if the attachment was to my career.
I am grateful for what this career allowed me to do, to grow a side of myself and create peace in my heart and those I assisted in sessions. This is my letter to let you know I have now grown beyond it and am seeking enlightenment in different ways.
I am not sure what the future holds. It requires quite a bit of faith on my part, but I hope that I have your support in this new phase of growth that I am in. I will continue writing and hope to see you commenting on anything that touches you.
Please keep in touch, the newsletter will continue on with inspiration and articles. It’s one way I can continue to be of influence in the world.
Thank you for all that you have done to change me. I am forever grateful.
Love and light,